Tuesday, June 23, 2009

How Naïve??



Urmmm wats wif the title u ask urself..

“how naïve”

where is dis goin??

Wat is dis all about??

u ask??

I can’t really tell how is goin to end but I sure know how did it begins…

As u all know or the people who know me knows I’ve been single as long as I can remember….Don’t assume that Im too perfect for anyone or I don’t know how to love but actually I really don’t know how love works…

Love works in our favour..we believe we have met the person we really felt close, felt the chemistry, felt the bond between u two were so tight that nothing cud break those bonds..well I’ve been there..to tell u the truth when they say wif love u can’t break anything….mine did?? It seems the power of love has forsake me… and they say wif love u can fight anything well sometimes love work in a mysterious way… works in our favour but deceit us in the end…I don’t want to a hypocrite saying oh I hate love and bla2 but in the end I adore love..who doesn’t want to love but sometimes love can also be a poison..It’s very lethal…

U ask urself again where is dis aymann goin wif this anti-love story??

Let me answer all ur question now being delaying long enough…like said b4 dis I’ve been single my whole entire life..it’s becoz I haven’t found the right yet….but I thought I found it…at first I didn’t want to believe didn’t want to participate in this love game….i said to myself “not the one” I try to fight it u know keep on denying but who am I fooling…for me to say Im in love is like saying Northpole is very hot..see how stupid it is…but I finally have the courage, the will to say “IM IN LOVE” I finally am!! Guys im in love.. im in LOVE!!! IM in love!!! Yahoooooo!!!!

I met the one it seems love had juz fallen into my lap…that person make me feel alive..that person somehow has stole my heart…I felt the bonds between us was as close as…ARGHHHH I can’t describe …there is juz no word in human tongue or any other tongue can describe the feeling the bond… I was so in love!!!


But suddenly I can’t see the sunlight…black cloud floating…it feels like thunderstorm had juz happened…we juz began to estranged n the funny part is…we didn’t have any fights or misunderstanding or any of that its juz fade…the part that hurt me so badly I’ve trying to reach that person but nothing nada zero…we talk laugh giggle the night before and then the next day puff!! It magically disappear … n everyday I sit and asked myself wat hav I done..what have I done!!!! U juz disappear…I was growing insane trying to figure out wat happened…I felt so stupid…so I thought I juz wait maybe something might turn up…coz things happened when ur least expected…but nothing not a zit…..


I was a fool to fall for it….

I am better of being alone than to be in love!!!

Till now I haven’t quite figure it out….How does love work!!

How Naïve was I...


along wif this i forge a poem...


DISSAPOINTMENT

I was an empty person,

Person without Love,

My life was like a roller coaster,

Going up the loop,

Going down the loop,

There was no Peace,

There was only frantic,

I move from one to another,

Searching for LOVE,

Searching for something worthwhile,

Searching to prove me wrong,

I search and I search,

But they were all the SAME,

On a gloomy day of a lonely night,

Where the stars were not seen,

Where the moon was not seen,

I met YOU!

At that very moment suddenly,

The stars were seen,

The moon was seen,

They even Shine brighter than ever!

I felt nothing Like it,

I felt joy,

I felt love,

I felt something that I didn’t feel for a long-time,

When we talked,

When we smiled,

When we had the awkward silence,

Feels like,

We were perfect for each other,

We were destined for each other,

For the first time In my life,

I felt something REAL!

Something worth holding on,

But it was all Crap,

But it was all Deceit,

But it was all FAKE!

I thought you’d be different,

Different from the Rest,

But in the end,

You end up,

Disappointing me THE MOST,

Thank you,

From the bottom of my heart,

For proving me right,