Im just randomly writing to let out my feelings..
But what feelings am I exactly want to express…
Im not sure actually…..
Hurmmm….
Im feeling lonely and furios lately…
I don’t know why…..
Im feel like climbing a mountain n screaming the top of my lungs!!!
Why am I feeling like this…
The worst thing I channeled it someone…
Why did I do that….
Am I feeling threaten to that person…
Arghhhhhhh
Why did I do tht…..
Im really stressed out channeling my ridicoulous anger to that person…
What hav I become….
That person didn’t do anything wrong nor that person has any connection to this feeling I have…..
Why ….
Every step im taking is bringing me closer to my rage…
Everything I do I feel angitated….
Arghhhhhhhhhhhh
How I wish I have someone to talk to…
But to come a think of it ….
What do I want to talk about???
NOTHING…
Exactly nothing…
U see what I mean…
Im feeling angry at something that don’t exist…
Im feeling lonely at something that don’t exist…..
I’m feeling as if im beginning to feel im no longer a person who is having a rational thought now…
Arghhhhhhhhh
Why???
No matter how hard I try Im feeling irate ….
Did anyone push my buttons????
I been asking myself the same question…..
And the only answer I get is….
diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii………
nada….
No one…
Nobody…..
So why am I feeling this way!!!!
I still felt guilty to the person thou….
Urmmmm how I wish I cud write srrry a million time to that person…
Bt that person doesn’t have any connection nor did that person trigger my rifle of anger…
Bt im feeling furious ….….
Why……
Sometimes I feel im about to loose it….
My ridiculous feeling is starting to take the best of me…
Killing my rationality….
Taking me to a place im not proud of…..
Taking me to a ride that no where in fun villle…
Arghhhhh…..
Im feeling that I’ve gone to the wrong direction…
And yet I have been direct otherwise…
Why do I take tht road when I’ve been told to go to other direction…..
Arrghhhh….
I juz wish sometimes life can be done by a book
Something like a book of recipe…
Where u do exactly like the book say
Or ur food will taste bad…
Why life cant be as simple like that…..
How I wish I cud resolve dis problem that neva exists…
Hurmmmmmm…
