Saturday, August 7, 2010

Random

Im just randomly writing to let out my feelings..

But what feelings am I exactly want to express…

Im not sure actually…..

Hurmmm….

Im feeling lonely and furios lately…

I don’t know why…..

Im feel like climbing a mountain n screaming the top of my lungs!!!

Why am I feeling like this…

The worst thing I channeled it someone…

Why did I do that….

Am I feeling threaten to that person…

Arghhhhhhh

Why did I do tht…..

Im really stressed out channeling my ridicoulous anger to that person…

What hav I become….

That person didn’t do anything wrong nor that person has any connection to this feeling I have…..

Why ….

Every step im taking is bringing me closer to my rage…

Everything I do I feel angitated….

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh

How I wish I have someone to talk to…

But to come a think of it ….

What do I want to talk about???

NOTHING…

Exactly nothing…

U see what I mean…

Im feeling angry at something that don’t exist…

Im feeling lonely at something that don’t exist…..

I’m feeling as if im beginning to feel im no longer a person who is having a rational thought now…

Arghhhhhhhhh

Why???

No matter how hard I try Im feeling irate ….

Did anyone push my buttons????

I been asking myself the same question…..

And the only answer I get is….

diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii………

nada….

No one…

Nobody…..

So why am I feeling this way!!!!

I still felt guilty to the person thou….

Urmmmm how I wish I cud write srrry a million time to that person…

Bt that person doesn’t have any connection nor did that person trigger my rifle of anger…

Bt im feeling furious ….….

Why……

Sometimes I feel im about to loose it….

My ridiculous feeling is starting to take the best of me…

Killing my rationality….

Taking me to a place im not proud of…..

Taking me to a ride that no where in fun villle…

Arghhhhh…..

Im feeling that I’ve gone to the wrong direction…

And yet I have been direct otherwise…

Why do I take tht road when I’ve been told to go to other direction…..

Arrghhhh….

I juz wish sometimes life can be done by a book

Something like a book of recipe…

Where u do exactly like the book say

Or ur food will taste bad…

Why life cant be as simple like that…..

How I wish I cud resolve dis problem that neva exists…

Hurmmmmmm…

1 comment:

Leha Kebaya Jarang said...

nape ni nepal...??
ish2 cube cite kat aq :)